Future plans.

            It just hit me that in less than a year I will  be starting a whole new chapter of my life. I will be moving sixteen hours away and moving in with an uncle and aunt who I see once a year if at all. I will also be leaving everything I have, my mom, my sisters, my dog, my room, some friends, and basically my childhood. Every day it becomes harder and harder to decide to leave, but I want to so bad. It would be so nice to live down there and I will have a better chance of getting into the career field I have chosen if I move. Sometimes I fell like nothing is right, like I'm being pulled in two opposite direction, not only by the states but also my family members. My mom keeps saying do what you want, do what is going to make you happy? Right now I am not sure what makes me happy besides my friends and family so then I start to think is would be a bad idea. Once I start to think that my mom asks do you know how far away that is, how do you know you will get into a school down there? Also even though my sisters and I fight so much it is going to be so hard to leave them. I will be missing so much of their accomplishments and their lives just for mine and I would feel so selfish doing that. My sister Bayley always tells me she does not care what I do as long as I'm happy and I wont forget her; when your sister says that to you you second guess everything, trust me I have done it plenty of times. We have been together our whole lives and to be separate trough stressful parts of both of our lives is going to take a toll on both of us. I have been planning my future my whole life and now that a huge step is coming I am not sure if I'm ready. People are always saying you'll know what to do when the time comes, but I feel like that time has come and I have no clue what to do or how to go about deciding what to do. Yes I want to be happy, but most of my happiness is here in Pennsylvania. On the other hand sometimes you have to try new things, move on from things in your life, so why couldn't I try to find new happiness down there?